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♪ america's prisons. dangerous. often deadly. there are 2 million people doing time. every day is a battle to survive and to maintain order. >> down on your feet. down. >> located in the deep south, holman correctional facility, where most are serving life sentences, we spent months documenting life on the inside, where prisoners have nothing but time and nothing to lose. this is "lockup holman extended stay." ♪
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holman is more than 170 men who have been sentenced to death and are awaiting execution. >> my role is the executioner. and i push all syringes. >> there's times i wake up feeling about dying in prison and that's a bitter pill to swallow. >> all are living with the inevitable. >> hardly nobody leaves. >> announcer: that their only chance of getting out of prison will be inside a coffin. ♪ for inmates serving lengthy sentences, one name merges into the next, weeks into years and a lifetime slips away. the challenge is to find meaning
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in their lives and not surrenderer to hopelessness and despair. ♪ baby butterfly why you had to die had to spread your wings ♪ ♪ before it's time baby butterfly oh she couldn't survive ♪ ♪ no only 17 yeah when she lost her life ♪ >> announcer: this musical duo spends every hour either writing, producing or performing and music, to them, has become a lifeline. >> i wish we could track it. like, beat on something. >> we ain't got shut to beat on. this is going to be a hit. >> for me it's a exit from the madness. it's comforting.
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i'm serving life without parole for robbery first degree. i've been in prison 15 years. ♪ open the streets of the club looking for danger and every thug smiled that his nina was there ♪ >> what is this? we grew up together on the street. >> he's from my hood, from birmingham. something good's been coming from it ever since. i said i'm a crip from 6-0 and i'm going to die a crip. i had to spill blood to come in it. >> his fierce loyalty to his gang almost cost him his life. >> they put me in the block with some of the guys i got into it
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with on the street. i'm trying to survive and a guy stabbed me in the eye with an ink pen. >> i call him the pirate. >> don't think this patch not me. dam, he a thug. but i'm a good guy. i got be real or whatever it is. i got to talk about my home girl. she was a crip etand she was on cocaine and she was supposed to turn a trick with a guy for $20. she bucked. she are efusrefused to do it an her throat. i gave it deep thought and came up with this song "baby butterfly" and it's going to be a master piece. >> announcer: the harsh reality that anthony is serving life without parole hasn't dampened his dream. >> you're going to like me tonight, boy. >> but there's times i wake up
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thinking about dying in prison and sometimes, yeah, it gets me down. like, what if a judge don't reconsider? what if i have to spend the rest of my life in prison and that's a bitter pill to swallow. i focus on my music then, because if i don't, it's going to turn violent. >> this whole environment is about making decisions, some of them real harsh. i have nine felonies and if i were to stab a dude in here and catch an assault, it's over for me. >> let me get a thing for the coffee. this is it, man. this is the crib. you got to find a secluded area and it's hard. it's almost impossible to find a place of solitude. it's hard to write the music and to stay focussed because so many people in our heads, so much noise. >> tv be blasting.
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>> tv too loud. ain't going to be able to concentrate. >> go by the shower. >> announcer: rehearsal space is hard to come by in prison walls. with no priveacy in the dorms, they have to make due. >> this is our secret claused. we drink our little coffee and smoke cigarettes and come up with what sound good. >> smoke weed if we can. ♪ baby butterfly nina was smart an angel off in the streets in the club looking for danger ♪ ♪ she's reaching out and no one seems to understand the dark ♪ ♪ life ain't always what it seems so many unanswered questions ♪ ♪ hur hers is a shattered dream♪ >> no, it's not right. >> you're the rapper. >> i can reach you, touch your heart, uplift you, make you feel my struggle, you can identify with my struggle.
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i think i've done good. ♪ and when i get out i'll make this i'll right all my wrongs ♪ ♪ when i get back home i'm going to get back home ♪ >> i got to get back home. they feeling me, man. [ applause ] >> announcer: their concert may have been a hit, but this is still prison where a momentary lack of self control can have lasting consequences as anthony patterson is about to find out. >> they have been placed in seg
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for violation of rule 38. we're going to go have a talk with with him and find out what led to this incident. >> announcer: patterson is asked to explain his behavior to the officers and our producer. >> what happened? >> did you ever see me masturbate on you? >> i didn't see anything. >> so, he accusing me of rule 38. that's indecent exposure. that means you saw me. >> no, that means he saw you. >> he didn't see, she saw. >> handle your pen out indecently exposed, if only to urinate. now, take him on up there. ♪
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>> announcer: next on "lockup extend stay." >> all the sudden all hell breaks loose. >> announcer: the nightmare is just beginning. >> they got me in this little bitty cell. and it's so hot. i don't know how long i'm going to be in here. >> announcer: plus. >> my first instincts put the telephone cord around me and choke. i can't control myself and i end up strangling her and stomping her with my fist and my feet. i have a blog called
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many inmates serving life without parole -- >> what the barber shop does for me, it relaxes me, gives me an opportunity to talk to people and relate to people and understand things that i thought i already knew. >> what do y'all think about me being voted sexiest player in the basketball league. been to prison 25 years. i ain't been called sexy for long time. >> sexy been around as long as you have. >> it's a learning experience every day when you come to the barber shop because it's like being a psychologist, a bar tender. it's more of an opportunity to relate and communicate than it is to get a haircut. i have a capital murder charge.
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my intention was to force entry into someone's home and in the process, i took a life. >> announcer: his downward spiral began after his wife left him while she was pregnant with their second child. >> i thought whatever it takes, that i'm going to pursue, get my wife back home. >> announcer: obsessed with getting his wife back, he planned a robbery at a family friend's home. >> i get in the driveway, dogs barking, the house is dark. the light was on. i woke her up. she was in shock because it'serer late at night. that time after midnight. what do you want this time of night? what do you want? and i says i need your help. and she says i can't help you and i says i need you to help me. i know you have that kind of
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money. i need you to support it. >> this is a picture of my mugger and i when i was a young boy. >> reporter: bill, the son of sherman moore's viktm remembers the night of the murder as if it was yesterday. >> my ex-neighbor called me and told me there was an activity at the home and that i might better get out there. >> she reached for the telephone. my first impression that she was calling the police and i immediately panicked. i grabbed the telephone cord and my first instinct was to put it around her neck and choke her. but i don't. i put my hands around her neck and i choke her. i can't control myself and i end up strangling her and stomping her with my fist and hand. and so before i know it, i hear a wheezing sound and i said
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lord, i done killed her. she's not breathing. so, i rushed up out of the house, grabbed the pocket book and i get it and leave. >> i could not find the car keys or her purse. >> i go to the drive through of the bank. and i write a check out. something like $150. >> he was at the bank window trying to cash a check from my mother. >> reporter: a bank tellerer alerted police who picked up moore at a nearby hotel. >> read me my rights, tell me what i'm charged with, tell me i'm charge would capital murder. you're going to get the electric chair. you're taken the life of a woman, a white woman, and you're going to pay for it. >> announcer: he was sentenced to life without parole and spared the death penalty. >> i told him he could rot in
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jail as far as i could care less. >> announcer: with no chance of ever getting out, he developed a repue tastation of extreme viol. >> i adapted to prison survival. don't befriend nobody, don't trust nobody, only trust your knife. i had three stabbing cases. multiple fights and i had this attitude 16/17 years, out of 24 years, i've done at least 15 in segregation. and i was living in a dead end until my daughter gave me a wake-up call and told me how much she needed me. this is my daughter, my heart, my reason for living. so, i decided to do something for my daughter and my family. >> announcer: he began attending church and in 2004, he was allowed to move into the honor
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dorm. >> i want to change my way of thinking. living out here, as you can see, is a whole lot different than in the population inside the dorm. you have access to go outside, come and go pretty much as you please. >> announcer: after move nothing to the honorer dorm and with a renewed sense of purpose, moore was inspired to make amends. >> i said i know what i'm going to do to change this. i'm going to write a letter to the victim. i'm going to ask him to forgive me. >> he's very lonely and expre expresses his sympathy to my family for what he did. >> announcer: then he called him on the telephone. >> i just got upset and handed the phone to my wife and she finished the conversation. >> announcer: sherman moore continued to contact him. >> lately, he's written me a
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couple of letters and asked me to get in contact with the warden and ask for his release. but i feel you commit the crime, you should do the time. i can't bring myself to go about that procedure. it's a bad day in mine and my family's life. sorry he has to stay in prison for what he did but that's just the way it is. >> announcer: next on "lockup extended stay." >> it happened february 24th, 1999. >> sherman moore, comes face to face with the mother of someone else's victim. >> i can't say i understand how you feel but i can understand your loss. it really shook t changed... now she's into disc sports. ah, no she's not. since when? since now. she's into tai chi. she found disc sports too stressful. hold on. let me ask you this... what's she gonna like six months from now?
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for inmates living in the honor dorm, there are many programs available. professor swanson teaches an empathy class to inmates to help them better understand the devastating impact of their violent crimes. >> no matter where they are or destined that they have the opportunity to be accountable for what they did, why they did it and formeny of the men who are lifers, making things right means changing their behavior in here. >> announcer: although these men may never meet the families of their victims, today they will hear first hand how violent crime can shatter lives. >> we're really honored to have pat with us.
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she is going to tell you her story. she'll tell you what happened and how it effected her and her family. >> i have to stand and move around. my name is pat. i didn't know how i'd feel here today. i had a lot of anger and sadness and i look at all of you and i have to almost think it's like facing the man who murdered my daughter. this is a photo of peyton. it happened eight years ago on february 24th, 1999, and someone had broken into her apartment. and all of his rage came out. and i thought how did she feel? how much terror gripped her. she fought very hard and he left her tied up and left. and peyton was able to escape and freed herself and she was
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almost down stairs and he came back in the house. and there she was tortured. he finally decided to cut her wrist off so she couldn't fight him anymore. and she was sexually assaulted several times and stabbed 17 times. the man who killed her is serving a life sentence without parole. we're not supposed to bury our babies. the day i saw her in her casket, her body was cold. she didn't have the smile on her face and i told her over and over how much i loved her because the day she was born i told her i would always protect her. and guess what? i lied. i lied. i felt like it was my fault. i stayed in bed for two months. my other daughter didn't have a mom anymore. i had to get up out of my bed and i didn't want to. people started calling me and i
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thought i've got to find out why peyton died so this doesn't happen and that's the journey that's brought me here today. life is a precious gift. for all of us. you don't dump all that rage onto someone else. i don't have hate in my heart. what i have is compassion in my heart and i have faith and hope that because i've come here today that maybe one of you will reach out to someone in your life to give them hope. what happened here today was unexpected for me. totally unexpected. i came here thinking i might unleash my rage and anger but what i found, i found what else i can do to try make a difference. >> i'd like to say thank you. your strength is overwhelming. your love for your daughter. and the ability that you have to
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try to make a difference in the world today. we love you. ♪ >> i myself am in prison for taking a life and i can't say i understand how you feel but i can understand your loss because i'm dealing with that every day and let you know that we feel your pain. it effected me. it really shook me up. i wish every man had an opportunity to really know how their victim felt. >> we never see the victim. coming into this prison, you, we came face to face with the victim. i know this is tough but it helps us see the reality of what we've and it can't do anything but good. thank you. >> you never know where healing is going to come from. i truly feel some of them have
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sorrow for the crimes they've committed. you've all given me curage today and hope. i feel i've made an impact. i felt i connected with a number of the men here today. i had to do this for myself. >> this has taught me capable to grow and it would be like confronting my victim and talking, at least to you maybe help me understand the impact i had. and it's like survive that and stay strong. there is no reason, no justifiable reason to take a life. >> announcer: next on "lockup extended stay." >> i miss my partner, haven't been able to write my music. >> announcer: anthony faces an
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uncertain future. >> we just collaborating and i guess i make his stuff sound better. >> announcer: and his writing partner, erick, feels lost without him. >> got me feeling crazy. i feel bad. and 2 minutes you are going to be 67. and on that day you will walk into a room where 15 people will be waiting... 12 behind the sofa, 2 behind the table and 1 and a half behind a curtain. family: surprise! but only one of them will make a life long dream come true. great things are ahead of you when your health is ready for them. at humana, we can help you with a personalized plan for your health for years to come. you can use whipped topping made ...but real joyful moments.. are shared over the real cream in reddi-wip. ♪ reddi-wip. share the joy.
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i'm milissa rayburger. historic rainfall led to flooding across much of texas. the white house was put on lock down, a woman was handcu handcuffed and detained after the incident. dramatic moments at a bernie sanders ral a ewhen animal rights activists jumped barricades. the rally continues after the protesters were removed. back to "lockup." ♪
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>> announcer: this is a zenith plant. i got the whole thing out, cultivated and try to keep everything fresh and looking good. they just real nice. right now they at their peek this time of year here. bring butterflies around and being locked up, we never see butterflies and bees and stuff like that. and it just gives you something nice to come outside and look at, instead of barbed wires all the time. my mom raised me up always digging stuff up in the yard and planting flowers. even though i'm incarcerated, that i'm still doing some of the things i enjoy doing. flowers is a sign of life. got such a good smell to it. i just love that. >> announcer: life on the inside can change. in an instant.
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♪ had to spread your wings >> announcer: when we last saw anthony patterson his musical collaboration was interrupted by an parent bad decision by one of our producers. >> hand your penis indecently exposed using it for something other than to urinate. >> i was coming back up on"d" si side, masturbating. >> anyone can see him. officer johnson saw it. officer mcquiry saw it. so, that being the case, he would have initiated disciplinary action. it just so happens that in the process of searching him, he had
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marijuana in his pocket. so he'll be in the segregation an exand then we'll have hearing on disciplinary hearing for both charges and he'll either be found guilty and given sanctions or found not guilty and released back to pod. >> announcer: meanwhile, ang anthony's writing partner, erick, just got word of the incident. >> guys are telling me, you know your home boy going to jail, yourpe partner, right? got me feeling crazy. i feel bad. we like brothers. we do everything together. i won't see him for the next six, seven, eight months maybe. before he get back to population. if he sends a letter through some other inmates being released from segregation, then
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they'll bring the letter, we call them scrys. and i'll read it, address it and whatever, then i'll have to wait until someone from population going to segregation take him a letter that i wrote. miss doing music with him too. we just collaborate and i guess i make his stuff sound better. ♪ since i've been gone >> when we get together, the music just comes, you know what i'm saying? >> announcer: erick struggles to cope in general population. and back in ad sec, it's clearly taken its toll on anthony. >> right now, i don't really
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know what's going on. i can't put the puzzle together because i don't know what happened. things was going to good for me and all the sudden, all hel breaks loose. it's so hot in here. i don't know how long i'm going to be here. >> announcer: they're housed in their cells 23 hours a day, they spend their days with limited human contact. >> to me, this is big cemetery. and right now, i don't need that in my life. this happened at a messed up time to be cut off from society, the population. trying to put everything together. the pieces not fitting together right now. i wish i could get with erick. i missio my partner. i been able to write but i've been staginate, because that's the way we culab.
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when i get out of here, i'm going to have five or 10 more songs. i think i have more negative than positive songs because due that heat and me wanting to be free, it's just so much going through my mind, i got to put it on paper. i don't have anyone to talk to, to listen to me right, so i'll pit it in songs and somebody will buy my cd and we'll be able to do big things. i got to put it in song at this point because what more can i do? ♪ >> announcer: coming up. >> they got me on a negative vibe right now. kind of feeling down and out. >> announcer: we check back in a week later and find that isolation is wearing him down. >> i look out this window and
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that's mentally doing something to my mind and i'm looking at it for what it is. it's deep. >> announcer: plus. >> my role is the executioner. >> announcer: a look at the only operating execution chamber in the state of alabama. >> by statute in the state of alabama, the warden. frrsh
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>> announcer: about half the inmate population at holman will never leave. and more than 170 men will meet their fate here in holman's death chamber where all executions for the state of alabama are carried out. in 2002, the facility switched from the electric chair to lethal injection. >> this is control room, process of carrying out executions happens here. it's a drug cocktail. and i'm able to have a visual of the condemned on the stretcher. so, i push all seven syringes. my role is the executioner. i can't be anymore specific about that. that's what -- by statute in the state of alabama, the warden at
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this facility is responsible for carrying out that duty. ♪ >> announcer: holman's barber shop is the perfect place for an inmate to get a cut, offer advice, or just gossip. but when there's an execution, it takes on a more somber tone. >> i couldn't see in the room. i seen when they brought him out. the dude was so heavy, man, in that black body bag on, man. he looked like he was tall. the family of the victims, doctor, the nurses seen all them come in. i was like -- talk about was scared. petraified. it's a sad occasion. >> announcer: all execution s occur at 6:00 p.m. and that day the prison goes under lock down,
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restricting any movement. >> death row inmate will be escorted into this cell. there's no property allowed in the cell. everything he would have had in his cell would have been confiscated. we allow him to use the phone. mail is brought to him, gets an opportunity to read it, passes it back out. last year we did one. i think the year before that, we probably did three or four. this door leads us into the execution chamber. we have three viewing rooms. of course, this is a gurney. on the left is his witnesses and the news media and on the right are the victim's witnesses. basically sit down and a team of people strap him down to the gurney. the day of the execution, i will come through that door, come around to this area and
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basically face the condemned. we will read the death warrant and offer an opportunity to have any last words. most guys don't say a whole lot p. a . and after that, walk back into the control room and prepare to carry out the duties. we communicate with the commissioner's room to insure there have been no last minute stays and then we move forward. we start the process of administering the drugs. it takes approximately 20 to 25 minutes from administering the drugs, bringing the doctors into the room, having them perform an examination and them actually declaring death. we exit, execution team takes back over. the body is delivered over to forensics and that concludes the process. >> i don't see how a man could
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be that cold blooded inside, man. kill nobody. the warden. i couldn't be at peace with myself. >> a lot of people would not want to take the job at this facility simply because of having to deal with the executions. i generally will silently say a prayer privately in my office before coming back here. you kind of push them back until it comes that time and you deal with that at that time. >> announcer: roughly half the prison's population whether on death row or serving life without parole, won't see the outside world until the end of their sentence sentences, which cases means death. >> i'm going to a funeral. we're burying one of our inmates. he died of natural causes. had been in prison for quite some time. family members were not able,
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financially, to get the body for burial or have a burial spot. as a result, the state takes are espon responsibility for whatever inmate to bury him and have a funeral. whether it's life sentence, life without parole and even a death sentence, they've accomplished their sentence when they get to this point and lot of them it's terms of options prefer death as to living in prison. let's pray. lord, we thank you so much for your blessing, your goodness and life. i pray that we may be able to understand life and lord, our loss with regard is tearful, sorrowful. but we know he's a gain as far as heaven is concerned. >> it's another part of the job done with utmost respect. it's a life cycle. the man was incarcerated. he was there and because of the
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sentence we imposed upon him and it's just part of it. >> and though it was tough, though it was hard, though there were probably tragedies that he left behind him, when he came to know you as lord and savior, lord, we know that things changed. this is one of the aspects that i consider brings about a sense of human dignity to life of incarceration. we ask that you comfort the family with your words and comfort them, god, knowing that you the resurrection and the life. we pray all these things and thanks in jesus name, amen. death is death, no matter who you are and in this case, i think it was freedom. >> announcer: next, on "lockup extended stay."
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>> hey, how you doing? >> sherman moore sees his daughter for the first time in more than a year. >> you probably didn't think i was coming? >> yi knew. they told me. sheez arer i hear you. to everyone with this pain that makes ordinary tasks extraordinarily painful, i hear you. make sure your doctor hears you too! i hear you because i was there when my dad suffered with diabetic nerve pain. if you have diabetes and burning, shooting pain in your feet or hands, don't suffer in silence! step on up and ask your doctor about diabetic nerve pain. tell 'em cedric sent you. so we know how to cover almost almoanything.hing, even a ufh2o. [man] that's not good. [pilot] that's not good.
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♪ for the roughly 360 inmate said serving life without parole, knowing they may never leave prison takes its toll but this hardship is often shared with their family members on the outside. >> this is a very important day. i'm here to visit my father.
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this is wonderful because it's the father's day weekend. it's been really difficult for both of us not being able to hold him at least once a month and say i love you. he's always been incarcerated ever since -- well, before i was born. he's always been here. it's been a tough experience for myself. but with prayers and the christian background i come from, i've been able to maintain. >> it's been a little over a year since we seen each otherer. she's my reason for not giving up, continuing to survive and continuing to go forward. and i feel not only fortunate but blessed to have her in my life. >> hey, baby. >> how you doing? i miss you. you look so good. >> not as good as you. today's father's day.
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so, how you been? >> i'm great. >> you look good. >> do i? >> i was expecting to see an old man with all this gray hair. what's going on? you probably didn't think i was coming? >> i knew. they told me last night. >> i've been missing you. i really have. it's tough. he's my inspiration. although he's here, he's still my everything. >> she's my inspiration. my motivation. she's my reason for not giving up. the day that she told me that she loved me, wasn't the first time that she told me but it was a time in my life where i understood how much she loved me. what i have with her is something that i know a lot of fathers don't have. she cherished every moment and i
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cherished every moment and we were able to build and bond. she means the world to me and there's nothing i wouldn't do for her. i was thinking this morning how much that i love my daughter. you know, there's no boundaries. no limitations. >> i love you. >> love you, baby. >> she got ready to leave, always the worst time when you have to separate and you go your own way. it's a moment i never forget. >> i love you so much. >> she told me that she loves me, it goes straight to the heart. >> bye, baby. >> bye, daddy. i love you so much.
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daddy, i love you. it was kind of tough for me, especially having to leave. everything was pretty much emotional. daddy can be very dominate and firm and to the point but today was out of the normal. it was a lot of tears. i love my dad. ♪ >> announcer: meanwhile, back in ad sec, it's been nine days since anthony pattererson was first charge woud with indecent exposure and possession of marijuana. it kind of got me on the negative vibe right now. got me feeling down and out. but all in all, i'm staying
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focussed, trying to keep everything in its right perspective. it's hard to be taken out of population that fast and all the sudden this happens. i look out this window, that's death row and mentally, that's doing something to my mind. it's deep. guys down right there. i got a homey over there. i'm not claiming to be perfect. i'm just trying to make it, maintain. god done blessed me with the talent he blessed me with. hopefully we can turn the negative into a positive. ♪ trying to make something out of nothing trying to make sense of it all ♪ ♪ because too many years done passed me by locked up behind prison bars and it hurts my heart ♪ ♪ looking out my window i see death row and it ain't no joke ♪
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♪ looking at my home boys who i grew up with, wlho knew they would end up on death row ♪ ♪ starting to look like my whole hood here but i know there's a better place to me ♪ ♪ and a hevon for a g so every day that passes i step closer to my own caskets ♪ ♪ the mixed with the sadness. i find myself asking how ♪ ♪ so was i born in this world to die alone a homeless child ♪ ♪ i got to keep it real, keep it no frils, keep it hard core concrete steel ♪ ♪ now everybody's pushing me pushing me, man ♪ it hurts my heart.
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due to mature subject matter, viewer discretion is advised. >> america's prisons, dangerous, often deadly. there are 2 million people doing time. every day is a battle to survive and to maintain order. >> down on your feet. down! >> located in the deep south, holman correctional facility where most are serving life sentences. we spent months documenting life on the inside where the prisoners have nothing but time and nothing to lose. this is "lockup: holman extended stay."


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