today after all the reality show drama, emily says she's moved on to a peaceful new chapter which she writes about in "i said yes." it's the story emily says of saying yes not only to new husband tyler but also to god after many difficult years. among the dark episodes emily explores, the time at age 15 when lonely and depressed she downed a bottle of pills. >> i had a bad day. i just decided i'm going to take some pills. i did and ended up in the hospital. i would call it a cry for help. >> reporter: emily also writes about the tragic death of her fiancee nascar driver ricky hendricks killed in a plane crash in 2004 just days before she discovered she was pregnant with their daughter, little ricki. >> after the accident i wished more than anything that i had been on the plane with him. >> reporter: emily credits "the bachelor" for putting a bounce back into her single mom step. still, she says she knew almost as soon as brad proposed it felt forced. >> you see it on tv and it just looks so romantic but when you're actually in the moment it's not that way at all. it's so quiet. and it

. >> our new bachelorette, jojo. [ cheers and applause ] >> reporter: and ben's surprising bride-to-be lauren proposing for a second time. >> will you marry me once again? >> yes. [ cheers and applause ] >> and now here they are, ben higgins and lauren bushnell. come on out. ♪ can't get enough of you >> hi. >> you guys aren't tired or anything, are you? >> mo. >> because when you were live in l.a. i was in my bed like turing out the lights and here you are now so what a whirlwind. congratulation, by the way. >> thank you. >> you said yes twice. >> i did. >> so what are you most looking forward to other than going to sleep for a few hour. >> other than a little nap later, you know, i'm looking forward to just starting a normal life. you know, we've been engaged but secretly for the last few weeks and so i'm excited to go on a date. >> do you have any big plans in new york tonight. >> we'll actually stick around for a couple days. i do have a surprise planned for her. i don't want to ruin it but we will have a nice dinner date. >> haven't there been enough surprises, ben? >> i can't ge

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