. the middle of june, and i had to recover somehow. you are going to hear a lot out partner, sadia but city she had to hold the house going go other a job and take care of our children so one dave i was by myself and i was freaking out. so i kind of pulled myself together, and i pulled my privilege together and like i put this frame on afterwards but seemed to matter to me that the doctor i asked for was the one doctor who called me -- rieder instead of mr. rieder am young guy who spent a little more time with me and asked me about my research. that's the guy i wanted and i got him. and i got him to come to my room and said you have to fix this. said i will. my attending the surgeon, not the icu, my attending women fix you up and kept his word and his attending called a pain management consult, and the pain management consult came to my room and they fixed me. they gave me lots of the good stuff. and i was so, so grateful. i faded into oblivion for the rest of my ten days this hospitalization and i remember it being hard in the way this whole couple of months wars hard but it was fine.